I only joined this site a month ago and JWSurvey not long before that. I have been out for years even before we had the internet in our house. Even though I was out it took me a long time to get up the nerve to check out apostate sites, I was terrified my husband would find out I was on them. I thought that everyone who did not believe anymore would have just stopped going. I was amazed when I found out that there were many who still went (including elders) and that some still even went on the ministry and gave talks. I never ever thought that this could happen, and it has given me hope that someone I personally know could also be doing this, and that I could get a call from an old friend or family who has started to wake up.
I can understand why so many do this because of family and friends and the fear of losing them. This question was asked because I have been wondering a lot just how many of you there are, but I guess that would be impossible to answer.